Worry just never ends

The sore in Mellow's mouth has gotten smaller and less "angry" according to his vet, but still there. Another two weeks on antibiotics, if its not gone at the end of this round Doc will take biopsies to see what else might be going on. He tells me not to worry, Mellow is young and healthy, but can't help but worry anyway. Yeah, OK, overreaction from what happened with Levi I know, from a seemingly happy, healthy dog to so ill and gone in a month, I still can't get past it.

Where is the time going

Just flying by, and not getting much accomplished. Decided to delay the decision on the shawl - start over or rescue, and started another project, a tablecloth from Kintted Lace Designs of Herbert Niebling by Eva Mara Leszner.

The projects in the book aren't named, so call this one Page 23. The pattern has some errors, but pretty easy mostly.

Mellow was at the vet a few weeks ago for his rabies shot, but nothing is ever simple anymore, the doc found a sore in his mouth. He's been on antibiotics for two weeks in the hopes that its just an infection and will clear up, he goes back tomorrow to be rechecked. If the sore isn't gone then we'll have to do biopsies. Infection makes sense though, all summer they've been reroofing around here and all kinds of strange things have landed in my yard, as much as I tried to keep it picked up I could have missed something. Mellow misses nothing, easy to imagine him getting ahold of a nail and puncturing his mouth resulting in infection. So fingers and paws crossed.

AARRGGHH

Scrapping the shawl I think, got lost in the 200th round, no lifelines and I could rescue it a couple rows back but wasn't happy with the way the nupps turned out anyway so maybe deciding to just chalk it up. So much time though, just gone, useless except for the learning experience. Love the pattern, deciding what to do, start this over again or move on to something else, or I may decide to try to rescue what I've done so far, sleeping on it.

Dog days

Finally its hot and muggy summer around here, its been great until now though, very comfortable temps.

Lainie is too cute, even in 90 degree-plus temps, she loves to lay in the sun. The rest are ready to hit the air conditioning again after a half hour or so outside. Two months yesterday since Levi left us, still miss him a lot, Mellow still lays in Levi's old spot under the desk frequently, otherwise I guess we're mostly back to after-Levi normal.

Finally got going on the Estonian Lace Christening Shawl, the nupps really slow me down and the last border has a ton of them so this isn't going to be a quick project, but its really turning out beautiful.

Happy July 4th!

Ok, so a day or two late. The dogs and I sat out back and watched the fireworks, no reaction from them to the noise, thankfully.

Working on Estonian Lace Christening Shawl, not working too hard though, can't seem to get into it. Its beautiful, once I get through the center section my interest will probably pick up. http://www.etsy.com/view_listing.php?listing_id=13841486

Working our way back to normal

This painting of Levi was done by a very good friend, you can see more of her incredible work at http://wooffactory.com/. Levi stayed with Steph and her pack for a week in Nebraska after getting out of the shelter and before heading home here. Thank you so much for this wonderful painting Steph.

After Levi

Can't seem to pull out of this sadness, depression, anger, I took the week off of work and all I'm doing is sleeping, in between taking care of the rest of the dogs. I really miss Levi, Mellow seems to miss him as well, he's spending a lot of time under the desk in Levi's old spot, Mellow never went under there before. Going to force myself to get going today.

I started Hannelore right after Levi was diagnosed, and finished the knitting just before he left us. Lots of tears in the lace, a lot of it was knitted while Levi was on the floor next to the couch within petting reach when he was still moving well enough to follow me everywhere, when I woke up at night checking to be sure he was OK and then knitted until I could go back to sleep. I managed to wash it and block it this weekend and its stored away, maybe someday it will just remind me of Levi as the wonderful companion he was, not of the devastating illness he suffered in the last month of his life.